Why did the owner name the company Azazia?

Because I (Ben - the President/Developer) am a Christian man.

Also, I truly felt the the name "To whom God has strengthened"  truly applied to me and my life experiences.

Uh oh... I can hear it now. "Red Alert.. Red Alert" Bible Thumper... "Eject..Eject."


Well, hopefully before you pull the eject handle, you might take a second to understand more about me and how I came to the place I am today, and that I am in NO way one who shoves my?spiritual beliefs down anyones throat. Believe me I'm the last person who would do that. I?am a?Christian and have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, but it took a LOT of pain to get to the mental place where I could remotely understand what that meant.


So how on EARTH did I of all people become a Christian? Well, it is a long story. As a youth (or as some of the East coast folks call it 'Yute') I attended a few churches, but I could never wrap my stubbon mind around religion. As a kid my parents took my brother and I to various African Methodist Episcopal Churches(AME), Lutheran Churches, Baptist, and a few others in-between. I found myself feeling waiting for God to fire a lightening bold down thru my spine out my coccyx bone as I sat in church angry and insulted. I felt angry because I could not understand the routines and humanly designed interpretations of The Bible. I only read brief excerpts of the Bible and I could not understand how this one book could not have been altered or mis-translated over the thousands of years since its inception. Moreover, I could not understand why so many people followed what was deemed as 'Gods Word' was nothing more than words on a piece of paper written by man? I could not differentiate between prophet, truth, and fiction. It made absolutely no sense to me how anything written in the bible could remotely be proven as fact scientifically, or even common sensically! Being a scientifically minded person, a Physics oriented thinker, and a analytical computer geek by day the beliefs regarding God, Jesus, and The Bible were so foreign and non-computational to me that they simply did not add up. So with that mindset, I continued to live my life tietering on being an Agnostic and Atheist.

Then my life took a dramatic change at the age of 19 (in 1989) I was heading back to school at UCSD with a guy I was pledging a fraternity with in the pre no-Hazing days where they could physically beat you and keep you up all night, and he fell asleep at the wheel and we hit a bridge going about 40mph. The force threw my head forward so fast that my spine cut into my spinal cord and I was?paralyzed from the chest down.

As further proof of divine intervention, we were literally directly in front of Scripps Hospital so they rushed me directly into the hospital. I had 4 doctors tell me I would never walk again, and because I had a head trauma they wanted to open up my head to drain the swelling.Thankfully Dr. Hyde (who is still there today By the way) said to hold off and 'see what happens.'

Dr. Hyde was correct and I slowly began to regain a tiny bit of sensation in my left toe a few months later; I still remember that moment and feeling extremely vividly to this day. From there on ?I continued thru re-hab and I was able to stand upright approximately less than a year later. I still walk with a cane today and I have muscle spasms and other issues that make life challenging, but I am always thankful that I am in the small percentage of folks who are considered 'amublatory paraplegics.'

Was it that incident that brought me to God? NO!

I did become more spiritual, but I still couldnot understand the 'religions' nor did I have any interest in The Bible, or learning about Jesus.

Even though my physical health was on the upswing compared to complete paralysis, my emotional life was at Defcon 1. I married early and we had a son with high functioning Autism. The woman I married became a seriously toxic influence on me, and virtually destroyed my close relationships with frienda and?those with every member of my family. It was not until almost 10 years later when I realized I was not doing my son any favors by staying in a situation where I felt I was literally emotionally dying, nor could I imagine seeing myself in that situation any longer. I chose to leave and file for Divorce.

Ah so that was what brought me to God. Nope. You would think so, but surpisingly not?

It was not until I became ensnared in the vines of the Family Court system that I realised the true depths of Hell. The tortuous fact of the family court system is that your life completely becomes not yours instantaneously and once the Judge and lawyers begin making decisions there begins a domino affect of financially, emotionally, and mentionally life and spirit sucking events of which you absolutely CANNOT control! It is literally worse than quick sand.

The many accusations I was accused of by my ex-wife, and the ways in which my life became no longer my own, and I was completely financially, and legally obligated and at the mercy of the court system completely broke my spirit. I was accused of every horrendous thing a human being could be accused of by my ex-wife and regardless of how much evidence I had to disprove I was continuously on the defensive. The situation became so dire and I had lost virtually all financial resources that I felt I considered suicide many times.

Somewhere in the midst of this hell storm where suicide begain to seem like my only option God sent a light my way and I met my now wife Tamera. We met online and were both going thru extremely painful situations with the Family court system and we seemed to bond instantly with that. Her son and mine developed a close relationship. .
Still, the ship was sinking as I became more and more entrenched by the legal system and dishonest therapists. Yes, it sounds insane, unfair, and inconscionable. Yes it is hard to believe and yes it doesn't seem possible.

It was at that point where no matter how honest I was, how much I followed the advice of attorneys, how much I played by the 'rules', how much I followed what the therapists told my my situation got worse and worse and worse and I could NOT FIX IT!

My wife and I were preparing to throw up our hands and I was willing to let my son go to the toxic environment of his mother when my wife asked if I wanted to visit The Church at Rancho Bernardo. Reluctantly I went. I solely went because I knew my wife was a Christian and if it was important to her I wanted to support that. I recall feeling irritable and sceptical and defensive as we drove to the building.

We sat in the front row and I remember how it felt as if Pastor Harry was speaking directly to me. He spoke of how 'were not there times in life where no matter how hard you tried to follow the rules, no matter how right you were, or how hard you tried things continually got worse. Were there not times when it felt as if your life were spiraling completely out of control and there was nothing you could do about it.' Then he spoke of how if we ask God into our lives he is the only one who can save us. He spoke of how God will not enter our lives until we ask for His presence and His help. He also spoke of how he was adimantly not referring to a religion!. Instead he was referring to a personal relationship with God, and with Jesus.

Now even though I was intrigued it took me several more visits before I began to understand how this is precisely the mindset I had been looking for. I recall the day when sitting in front of the church where I am man enough to admit that I openely weeped (and I DO mean WEEP) because I was in so much pain due to the custody and legal situation I was ensnared in, and how Pastor Harry spoke of taking that 'leap of faith, and trusting in God and accepting Jesus into your life.' He spoke of how it is ok to have questions and to not feel like you fully understand every intricacy of God and about Jesus, but that if we trust and accept, over time the answers would be revealed to each of us individually.

I don't know how to explain it other than I made a decision to shut off the analytical part of my brain and take a leap of fath and trust that if I took that step my life may get better. After all, I didn't figure it could get much worse?

I am pleased to say that since then my life has taken a complete turn. I went from having virtually no visitation with my son, and being almost completely burried by the legal system, to where my ex-wife was finally exposed, and now I am working on restoring my complete full visitation with my son. My marriage has improved exponentially, my relationship with my step-son has improved immensely, and I have found a personal peace that I never knew I could have.

Yes, the analytical side of my brain is still there, but I have found answers that I never knew existed. I found empirical and scientific data that was able to scientifically prove the accuracy and legitimacy of the Bible. NOT every word in the bible, but the aging of the documents, verification of times/places and events, and verification of authenticity which is more accurate than any other document in human existence. I will try to share those resources at a later time. My point however is more-so to underscore how 'as the Bible says' .... .. 'seek and ye shall find.'

My life is not 100% perfect, but I do not expect it to be. I have found a Christian Church that speaks of a personal relationship with God, and is based solely on the Bible. Not on opinions, or interpretations. Just studying the words within The Bible has amazed me as I have learned there is so much more there than I ever thought. If you are or were like me and are interested in learning about God, and about the emotion of God, the emotion of Jesus, and how The Bible can truly be as it is designed.. a guide for us to live our lives in a Godly way. I encourage you to take that leap. Take that chance and take a few minutes to learn about God and how there are things in this world that can only be explained by the existence of a God. The death and resurrection of Jesus can be proven if you look hard enough, and the fact that it occurred at all is only explainable by non-scientific terms. If you can make it this far, then you may learn as I did, that Jesus is not a color. He is not a White, Black, Asian, Middle Eastern, or any other person. He is all. He is God, and he was representative of all people and came here to show ALL of us how to live our lives. If you can get past the modern-political'isms of who Jesus is, and take a moment to focus on His words and Teachings, I guarantee you will unlock a treasure chest of knowledge, peace, and information you never knew existed.

I hope my life experience was helpful, and I thank you for considering Azazia for your software needs. I wish you many blessings and peace.

-Ben